Monday, March 31, 2014

Decisions

I kind of feel like a broken record. Like every time I blog it is "up, down, up, down, up, down...." I feel like every time It starts with "please pray for...." or "Yay!!! Thanks for praying." Someday this roller coaster blog will say "It's finished!!!" That day however is not today. I will try to keep the long story short.
A couple of weeks ago we were notified that our home study would expire in May. Therefore we had to yet again run through the gamut of paperwork, physicals, in home visits etc etc... My first thought was "How could it have been that long already?! Seriously? Has it been two years?!" However, God yet again provided and the money was there to do it. So, we are in the process of updating the home study, as discouraging as it may be.
Then, Nahum had another rough couple of days waiting for his sister. Or, "missing her" as he says. I still hate how hard this is on his sweet little heart. This of course just adds to the emotions.
Finally, (and this is where the up and down continues) we need some serious prayer. We have some hefty decisions to make. We received another email from our agency stating that our wait time has yet again increased. We are now at 36-42 months wait DTE (Dossier to Ethiopia) This is getting insane and hard to take. When we started this process it was 9-18 months. The continual increase has me beyond discouraged. I keep praying. I keep trying to stay positive through the questions and continual changes, but I'm not gonna lie. I'm over it. I am sad. There is pretty much no other words other than sad and discouraged. Basically we need prayer for direction. Do we wait this out another 3 years??? It has already been over 2 1/2! Do we transfer our dossier to another country? Do we switch to domestic? There are babies every where that need a mommy and daddy. Everywhere! Where do you want us to pursue God?
We are going to spend some time praying over this decision. Please pray with us. We need it!