Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Bananas

As you know, last week we had the Jewelry Party fundraiser that my friend Donna had for us. It was SUPER FUN! After all of the information and demonstrations were done we just sat around and talked and laughed our rears off for hours. Literally hours. It was wonderful! We made $150 from the sales and we were also given a $100 donation at the party, so I would say it was quite successful! $250, 3 hours or so and a whole lot of laughs! What a great night! Thanks to all of you who supported us through this!




Now, onto where our hearts are at....
Paper work, paper work and more paper work. Phone calls and emails for clarification on previous paper work....aaaggghhhh....I am learning more patience than I have ever had to before. I just want this to move....fast! And then today I was at Walmart with the boys. We were going to buy bananas and I wanted green ones. There was a nice man filling the banana stand with bright yellow ones, but I wanted green. (I know, this sounds like the beginning of a Curious George episode, but hang in there...) So, I asked the nice man if he had any green ones and he said he would run back to the back and check. I thanked him and planned to just wait patiently. As the man walked out of the way the sight behind him caught my breath. I saw a sweet girl, about 3 years old, twirling in her pretty green dress. She looked so sweet, so happy, so innocent. I started to cry. Why you ask? Because this little girls skin was the color of dark chocolate and her moms was a chalky white. That is going to be me soon....I want it so bad. Our daughter may not yet even be born, but my heart longs for her. And this little girl today was so happy, so normal, so loved. I could tell. It warmed my heart to know that children are not only getting a fighting chance at having a family, but children are learning what it means to be loved, learning God's love. As I was processing all of this...crying of course...the nice man returned holding my green bananas. I thanked him and took them from him and tried not to let him see me cry....I am pretty sure he thought I was nuts. No sir, I was not crying because you found my green bananas.
Andy was saying how amazing it has been for him to be able to pray for her, long before she is even born. She is likely not born yet to this day. It isn't that we are praying for her as she is in a hard state of life, we are getting to pray for her before her life has even begun! For love, protection, hope, health, joy...you name it. We are blessed to be able to cover her in prayer before her existence. Awesome!
Someday, someone will see me walking through Walmart with my dark skinned daughter and hope will fill their heart....I can't wait!

11 comments:

  1. I feel so blessed right now! Just watching/hearing you through this process is precious to me! I can't wait to see her too! Love you so much

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  2. If I may, as much as you long to have her in your arms RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT (and you know that I know the very same feeling), I couldn't help but reflect on what you were there to want in the first place. Not a yellow banana, but a green one. Perhaps this is what God sees you as right now as well. Not a yellow banana completely ready for use, but a green one that is still ripping and preparing for use. My heart longs for the same outcome as you, my dear, but for now, I guess we just have to both be content with being green bananas! : )

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    1. Good thought Angie. I tell ya what, I thought I had patience...boy was I ever wrong. God is sooo working on that in me. Not to mention about a million other things...stepping out of my comfort zone...and the list could continue. Green we shall be. ;)

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  3. I think it's pretty sweet how God speaks to us...how He uniquely planned that moment for you and that you would KNOW that He is preparing the way, that He has put this incredible love for your daughter whom is potentially unborn in your heart right now, and that He sees you...and the patience thing...omg, I get it...it seems He has us both uniquely in very different places yet teaching us the very same thing :) Love how He does that too. God's pretty creative, I gotta say. Love you.

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    1. love you too...and...we keep learning ;)

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  4. That poor banana man must have had a heck of a story to tell too when he got home from work that night ;) "hooooooney, you won't believe what happened to me today while filling up the banana basket...."

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  5. I was looking through the pics trying to find myself... then I thought "I don't remember there being a camera... and I wasn't there when everyone was looking at the jewelry." DOH! haha So yea I'm not going to be in the pics. :) te he

    The Walmart kid probably went home and told his friends that some lady came in and was upset because there weren't any green bananas!!

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    1. Nope Ang you were out smackin Volleyballs around at that point. :) Next time I will take one of you alone and post it lol!

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  6. Very sweet moment. God is working! Love the "green bananas" analogy in the comments. How many times have we all been "green bananas" and tried to be "yellow ones". It's kinda hard to swallow at times but it's in the bitter seasons of life that we grow the most. Lord help me to remember that. I can't wait to see you with your daughter...oh what a life she will have. ;)

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